Hi Everyone,
Previous posts have referred to our cat Selene's diagnosis with lymphoma of the bowel wall in September 2009 and how things have gone since then (Has the Use of EFT and Reiki Helped Our Cat Recover From Lymphoma of the Bowel Wall? Part One ; Part Two ; Selene's Solstice Gift To Us.)
As you can see if you read the last posting, the vet considered that Selene was in remission. The lymphoma hadn't gone, but was no longer a real cause for concern as long as she was taking the prednisolone.
These last few days have been emotionally quite stormy as Selene took a turn for the worse, it seemed, and we were considering if the time had come for that final vet appointment.
We have been here before, in October of last year, when I was sure that the visit to the vet would mean us bringing back a lifeless little body to bury in the garden.
On the morning of the appointment, she looked so wan and dejected; she had had a big problem with diarrhoea that hadn't cleared up after a day or so, and her stance reminded me of Tigger's just before we took her on her final vet trip.
I was an emotional wreck, and just couldn't stop myself from crying. I had to go into work for a couple of hours and knew that I had to do something to help both me and Selene. So I started tapping, at first for me, and then surrogately for Selene.
Within a few minutes I became calm again and able to cope. I work with people with learning disabilities. Seeing me in an emotional state would cause some of them distress. It would also mean that some would keep probing the wound, as they do not realise that there are some things that you just do not keep talking about, which would cause distress for me, and ultimately for them if I ended up bursting into tears.
Interestingly enough, by the time I got back home from work, Selene was looking a lot brighter. We decided we would still get her checked over by the vet as the diarrhoea was a cause for concern.
Craig, our wonderful vet, gave Selene the once-over. He confirmed the tumour was no larger than previously so she was still in remission, and that the extra-liquid nature of her deposits was due to the lymphoma cells secreting fluid into the bowel.
He reassured us that it wasn't yet her time; that if we did have her put to sleep we would probably regret it as it was his opinion that she would have no trouble getting over her recent trouble. We would know when the time had come but in the meantime enjoy her company some time longer.
Well, he was right. A few weeks ago we took her for her regular check-up and reminded him of his words. Was it really 4 months?
There is a pattern to her condition; she has a few good days, sometimes even a week or more, and then she goes off her food and we have some really horribly wet offensive smelling deposits and she looks very sorry for herself. Within 12 – 24 hours she is back to what we consider “normal” for her and away we go again.
Last Thursday was a bad time for her. With the amount of fluid she must have lost (6 puddles within 12 hours) I really did fear the worst. She looked very sorry for herself on the Friday morning. I was in tears yet again and gave myself another tapping session to help me come to terms with the possibility that this was it.
I then sat down in front of the chair she was on and let Reiki flow. It's a bit unusual for her to take Reiki from me, especially for about 15 minutes or more, but she did on Friday so perhaps that helped. Obviously she had decided it's not yet time to shuffle off this mortal coil.
She ended up eating a fair bit later that day - the OH bought her some fish and chicken in from the chippy as he was going past on his way from work, and she had the best part of a pouch of food in the evening, plus a few more chicken bits as we ate our meal.
She evidently has rubber ball somewhere in her make-up, because once again she bounced back.
On Saturday we brought in some roast pork and chicken legs from Morrisons on the way home from my sister's as it was too late to start the roast I was planning on doing. Selene demanded food with threats (claws in the kneecap) and growled as she wolfed it down to make sure the other cats stayed away.
We were worried about her again yesterday - she went very quiet and off her food again earlier on, and I had resigned myself to the fact that we would probably be making that phone call to the vet this morning. Once more in tears, I was tapping like mad.
Wake up this morning - no further deposits; she wolfed down some chicken and was looking alert and bright-eyed again. This evening she has eaten well, and the OH is back to having a painful dining experience as she "gently" pokes him in the knee with her claws.
This is where the dilemma lies. With Tasha and Tigger it was obvious that there was no other option. The choice effectively made for us. Selene bouncing up and down like this makes it very difficult for us. So we play it by ear - if she stays down longer than 48 hours - then we think that will be the sign. As things are now we could be in this same place weeks down the line. Gboing, gboing ....
I've done a fair amount of tapping over this weekend and I think it has brought me to a place of equilibrium - no tears welling up today, at least not yet. Interestingly enough, it seems that when I am more peaceful about it all myself, it gives Selene a boost - all things are connected.
Anyway, the main thing is, Selene's still around and seems generally OK. I just don't want to let it get to the stage where she seems to be suffering; thankfully that is something we have the power to do if needs be - give her release.
It is a bit strange to note that a post I wrote about the use of surrogate EFT for pets at the end of their life is dated just a couple of weeks under a year ago. I wouldn't have been without EFT these past few days and suspect I will be needing it again sooner rather than later.
For those who might like to know, my tapping sequence has been something along the lines of the following.
Even though I feel so emotionally wrecked by what is happening now with Selene, I deeply and completely love and accept myself.
Even though it hurts so badly to know that we might have to take her on that final journey to the vet, and only bring her back to bury in the garden, I deeply and completely love and accept myself and all my feelings.
Even though my heart weeps at the thought that Selene may only have a few hours left with us, I deeply and completely love and accept myself and all my feelings and allow her to go freely and with love.
Then I tapped around the usual points with reminder phrases such as:
so emotionally wrecked; hurts so badly; don't want to lose Selene; but we have to let her go; can't keep her going if her quality of life is gone; my heart weeps; she looks so wan; my sweet little cat; don't want to let you go; she's only about 9 years old; it's not fair - for her or for us; can't see her suffer; allow you to go; know it is best for you; Craig will know; if it's your time...
When I started I would be in a state of tears and deep sorrow. Within a very short period of time, the tears would stop and the smiles come as I watched Selene. And as I said above, whenever I regain a state of equilibrium, it seems to help Selene as well.
The fateful day will come, and in our hearts we know that it is likely to be sooner rather than later now. As Craig said back in October, we will know when it is time. In the meantime, we will treasure the time we have left with Selene. She may only be a cat in some people's eyes, but to us she is a little treasure. And we cherish her.
Bright Blessings,
Previous posts have referred to our cat Selene's diagnosis with lymphoma of the bowel wall in September 2009 and how things have gone since then (Has the Use of EFT and Reiki Helped Our Cat Recover From Lymphoma of the Bowel Wall? Part One ; Part Two ; Selene's Solstice Gift To Us.)
As you can see if you read the last posting, the vet considered that Selene was in remission. The lymphoma hadn't gone, but was no longer a real cause for concern as long as she was taking the prednisolone.
These last few days have been emotionally quite stormy as Selene took a turn for the worse, it seemed, and we were considering if the time had come for that final vet appointment.
We have been here before, in October of last year, when I was sure that the visit to the vet would mean us bringing back a lifeless little body to bury in the garden.
On the morning of the appointment, she looked so wan and dejected; she had had a big problem with diarrhoea that hadn't cleared up after a day or so, and her stance reminded me of Tigger's just before we took her on her final vet trip.
I was an emotional wreck, and just couldn't stop myself from crying. I had to go into work for a couple of hours and knew that I had to do something to help both me and Selene. So I started tapping, at first for me, and then surrogately for Selene.
Within a few minutes I became calm again and able to cope. I work with people with learning disabilities. Seeing me in an emotional state would cause some of them distress. It would also mean that some would keep probing the wound, as they do not realise that there are some things that you just do not keep talking about, which would cause distress for me, and ultimately for them if I ended up bursting into tears.
Interestingly enough, by the time I got back home from work, Selene was looking a lot brighter. We decided we would still get her checked over by the vet as the diarrhoea was a cause for concern.
Craig, our wonderful vet, gave Selene the once-over. He confirmed the tumour was no larger than previously so she was still in remission, and that the extra-liquid nature of her deposits was due to the lymphoma cells secreting fluid into the bowel.
He reassured us that it wasn't yet her time; that if we did have her put to sleep we would probably regret it as it was his opinion that she would have no trouble getting over her recent trouble. We would know when the time had come but in the meantime enjoy her company some time longer.
Well, he was right. A few weeks ago we took her for her regular check-up and reminded him of his words. Was it really 4 months?
There is a pattern to her condition; she has a few good days, sometimes even a week or more, and then she goes off her food and we have some really horribly wet offensive smelling deposits and she looks very sorry for herself. Within 12 – 24 hours she is back to what we consider “normal” for her and away we go again.
Last Thursday was a bad time for her. With the amount of fluid she must have lost (6 puddles within 12 hours) I really did fear the worst. She looked very sorry for herself on the Friday morning. I was in tears yet again and gave myself another tapping session to help me come to terms with the possibility that this was it.
I then sat down in front of the chair she was on and let Reiki flow. It's a bit unusual for her to take Reiki from me, especially for about 15 minutes or more, but she did on Friday so perhaps that helped. Obviously she had decided it's not yet time to shuffle off this mortal coil.
She ended up eating a fair bit later that day - the OH bought her some fish and chicken in from the chippy as he was going past on his way from work, and she had the best part of a pouch of food in the evening, plus a few more chicken bits as we ate our meal.
She evidently has rubber ball somewhere in her make-up, because once again she bounced back.
On Saturday we brought in some roast pork and chicken legs from Morrisons on the way home from my sister's as it was too late to start the roast I was planning on doing. Selene demanded food with threats (claws in the kneecap) and growled as she wolfed it down to make sure the other cats stayed away.
We were worried about her again yesterday - she went very quiet and off her food again earlier on, and I had resigned myself to the fact that we would probably be making that phone call to the vet this morning. Once more in tears, I was tapping like mad.
Wake up this morning - no further deposits; she wolfed down some chicken and was looking alert and bright-eyed again. This evening she has eaten well, and the OH is back to having a painful dining experience as she "gently" pokes him in the knee with her claws.
This is where the dilemma lies. With Tasha and Tigger it was obvious that there was no other option. The choice effectively made for us. Selene bouncing up and down like this makes it very difficult for us. So we play it by ear - if she stays down longer than 48 hours - then we think that will be the sign. As things are now we could be in this same place weeks down the line. Gboing, gboing ....
I've done a fair amount of tapping over this weekend and I think it has brought me to a place of equilibrium - no tears welling up today, at least not yet. Interestingly enough, it seems that when I am more peaceful about it all myself, it gives Selene a boost - all things are connected.
Anyway, the main thing is, Selene's still around and seems generally OK. I just don't want to let it get to the stage where she seems to be suffering; thankfully that is something we have the power to do if needs be - give her release.
It is a bit strange to note that a post I wrote about the use of surrogate EFT for pets at the end of their life is dated just a couple of weeks under a year ago. I wouldn't have been without EFT these past few days and suspect I will be needing it again sooner rather than later.
For those who might like to know, my tapping sequence has been something along the lines of the following.
Even though I feel so emotionally wrecked by what is happening now with Selene, I deeply and completely love and accept myself.
Even though it hurts so badly to know that we might have to take her on that final journey to the vet, and only bring her back to bury in the garden, I deeply and completely love and accept myself and all my feelings.
Even though my heart weeps at the thought that Selene may only have a few hours left with us, I deeply and completely love and accept myself and all my feelings and allow her to go freely and with love.
Then I tapped around the usual points with reminder phrases such as:
so emotionally wrecked; hurts so badly; don't want to lose Selene; but we have to let her go; can't keep her going if her quality of life is gone; my heart weeps; she looks so wan; my sweet little cat; don't want to let you go; she's only about 9 years old; it's not fair - for her or for us; can't see her suffer; allow you to go; know it is best for you; Craig will know; if it's your time...
When I started I would be in a state of tears and deep sorrow. Within a very short period of time, the tears would stop and the smiles come as I watched Selene. And as I said above, whenever I regain a state of equilibrium, it seems to help Selene as well.
The fateful day will come, and in our hearts we know that it is likely to be sooner rather than later now. As Craig said back in October, we will know when it is time. In the meantime, we will treasure the time we have left with Selene. She may only be a cat in some people's eyes, but to us she is a little treasure. And we cherish her.
Bright Blessings,
Karen
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